HizeCool

Whatever you have done in college time, it is going to be good memories especially when we bring it to the reunion time. Thus I believe that I have done something worthwhile to remember about since. The problem is that I can’t really remember what I have done right during my 4 years in TAR College.
One of my college buddies often regards me as a disgrace or an embarrassment to the family. In Chinese it is called “羞家”.
Read the rest of this entry »

Dear Dad,

It has been 7 years and 6 months since you have left me. Your absence has left a tremendous space inside me. Today is the Father�s Day. It is a day that seems to be hard to go by.

Sitting here alone in the living room, I watched the city of KL seems to be consumed by the dark sky. It is either the sky is turning dark from the sun set or it can be the hungry black cloud trying to swallow and enveloping the sky. It seems this pretty much describe in the Jacky Cheung�s song. The sky is black in colour and my heart is blue in colour… that because all I can think about right now is only her, J.

After all these years, I finally found her. She is the one I�ve been waiting for. I knew it that I wanted her. Over the past relationship, I can clearly be sure of that she is the one I am looking for. She had the characters and personality that I believe you will definitely like about.

In your absence, I have been struggling to keep my head above. Since you left, my world has been seems to fall apart. At that time, living with uncle wasn�t much of a heaven but neither a hell. Mom was trying her best to cope with your lost and to get her grip. I was left much alone to myself to head with the daily routine, especially the struggle in college. Sister herself was also trying her best to find her own place in the outside world. She did not complete her studies, trying to find different jobs which sometimes worry me. It is not that her job wasn�t good but she doesn�t have the clear idea where she wants to head to. She finally landed herself good in a bookstore where she finds herself fit inside there.

Mom was trying to get us back together under one roof after she relocated back to KL that year. After you left, it took her a lot of effort and trouble to get a place to stay. Being at uncle house, she wasn�t much pleased that it wasn�t seems a home after all. We found a place to rent since then till now. It wasn�t much a luxury or bad. It is just decent enough to hold us together under one roof. A shelter I would call it. At least the place protects us from the bad weathers. Then everything seems to fall into their places. Everyone is playing the role in the home.

I remembered that Chinese New Year, I missed you a lot. Having to wake up in the first lunar day of the year to find that you are no longer around was something new. It has to be a fact for me to embrace and accept. Eventually, I met a mentor in college that helped me to get through this stage. He gave me a gift. A book entitled �Who Moved My Cheese?� which I used to tell mom that if you were around, I would share this to you. It meant a lot to me to change. To embrace change that you no longer be around but I can still keep the memories of you inside me.

Things were getting positive. Soon, I found my first relationship with C. It didn�t last long enough for a year. It just lasted barely few months to say the least. Maybe I wasn�t really ready for it. I couldn�t handle the responsibilities of a boyfriend. You know what; there are times when I wished you were around. At least that I could seek your advice how to deal with certain issues. I�m sure you have gone through all these before. Too bad that it didn�t really work out and I have yet hurt another girl in the process.

When I got myself my first college exam result, I knew I was doing quite well. But I realised that the bad times are yet to come. I wasn�t much of an Ace student but neither that am I doing that bad. I eventually was getting my diploma. Due to the result, I couldn�t continue getting the scholarship to move on to the next level, which is Advance Diploma. Luckily Ah Lee he funded some of the expenses in Advance Diploma. Mom was getting herself to fit the bill for the Campbell University examination fees. Due to that, I was determining to do well for the next 2 years. I know you wanted me to excel as well. I did my best and along the way, I met few people that helped me to get through the college life. The exam papers and stuff like assignments are pretty much taken care of by itself eventually. In a nutshell, for that particular 3 to 4 years, I managed to pave myself the path out from the brutality of the college life. I was then set to embrace the working life. Welcome world.

Dad, finding a decent job in 2004 isn�t as I expected. Without clear direction and knowing the fact of the prospect of the job, it seems like walking in the dark. By then mom on the other had had finally setting herself as a confinement lady. A job that she seems getting so into it whereas my sister, she still seems to find her way out of here. She wanted to be away from mom to say the least.

Note that during my degree graduation day, mom wasn�t around as she was away working. I wanted to have someone there for my graduation. You, mom or anyone I know that they can be proud of. Looking back, I couldn�t remembered if anyone did been there for me. If I am not mistaken, I believe that Wilson, my best friend was there. I have invited him to be there. Along together was my aunt. Yes. I believe she was there too. Dad, you know that if there is a chance, I would want you to meet this friend of mine, Wilson. He has been a good friend in my times of need. He had been a supportive and helpful friend.
As I joined the working community, I landed myself the first job as an intern � technically. It was under the MDEC program that I joined eB Technology. A company that now no longer exist. For that particular programme that lasted 6 months, I was taken under Mr. Zow�s wing. He is a great man and tremendously a good supervisor. Originated from Malacca, he was caring and attentive towards his staff. I find myself enjoyed working with him. After the internship, he requested me to stick around for much longer. I reluctantly rejected him for that was some issues going around with my other colleagues and leaving me uncomfortable being there. Furthermore, I decided to left for a greener pasture to say.
In my transition between the jobs, I was left jobless for a period of a month. Until one jolly good day that a good friend I came to know from the Internet game ��Utopia� invited me to joined the company he is working with at that time. Somewhat nearby my neighbourhood, I joined them for a period no longer than 11 months. It just doesn�t work well much to my dismay. The pay I took was a serious cut from the previous internship programme offered. Since that the location was near, and I was hoping that the extra time after work would make up for my salary which was partly the reason I go for it the first place. It was also part of the reason (the pay) that I didn�t stayed to one year tenure.

Dad, by now I guess if you are around you could be listening to me telling you all the sorts of stuff happened in that company. You know what I missed most about you? You are my world number one listener. You would be there listening to my rants and ramblings from the starts till I ended it. Then after that you would just put in a few words of wisdoms of yours. Then and there you will just make my day, as always. How could I forget those moments? I will always remember your last advice to me when I returned to KL to further my studies. You told me to �cherish oneself�

Next I decided that I need to move on for a better pay. A career change perhaps. I was practically influenced by Kelvin whom at that time was working as a salesperson. Then going into the sales line seems to be the best option after all. I soon seeing myself joined my current employment as I write this letter to you. It was in September 2005 that I joined this company. It will be 3 years coming this September. I begin to work very hard. Not to think much of anything else but to heed the daily routine. Was it a sign I am a workaholic? I doubted myself so. In these times, the days just slipped through. I cannot fathom how I eventually gone through those days. All I know was I was a man on a mission. I was on the move constantly between home and office. That�s all I can summarize for that particular 2 years. I couldn�t be bothered about any other things. To me it seems that that�s the life.

I did not give myself some time. And somehow as when life is unexpectedly will treat you things you can never imagine. G came into my life. Short-lived it was that turned my life 180 degree around. She was a tipping point. It happened very fast. April 4th and then … its history. I never looked back. The perception of life was once changed. I seems to seek for something else than work. I wanted to know what is in for me. Job has been since a job. It no longer holds satisfaction. Dad, I thought I was in love with her. But I know that deep inside my heart, she was sent down to remind me that there are whole lot more things around me besides work. I need to look harder. It was her �In Everything Gives Thanks� that seems profound to my mind.

Dad, I wasn�t sure why I suddenly wanted that change so much. Was it my biological clock turns on already? Or it is the emptiness inside me that needs to be filled? In the past years, I never felt the emptiness and lonely like this before. Being solidarity like now is fine for me but the feeling is far worse than that. It is like the missing piece that yet to be found. I needed someone that I can spend time with I think. You are right dad. Friends do come and go. They won�t be around that long as they will have their own life and circles to busy about.

So right now Dad I am sitting here wondering what my next move all about is. The whole day all I can think about was J. Like I told myself before that I know that G wasn�t meant to be. She have yet be together with her ex. But this J. I don�t know. She is different to me. I like her not for anything but her inner beauty. In fact, she got me captive by her inner thought. A person that is very special.

Dad if you are listening to me, what are the things you would say to me? I know that I really miss your profound advices. Being your son has been a greatest gift I can only ask for from a father. You might not be able to give me the material things in this world. But you gave me the best thing in life which is you. Your strong coarse hands that held me up every times I fall.

I miss your presence a whole lot more too. I missed the food you prepared on the dining table. The night we went for Sup Kambing, the time we go for haircut followed by a stop at the coffee shop, the early morning we go for Curry Mee when you returned from work. Same goes to the time when we were out on the road taking buses to find the so-called �Oracle�.

And Dad, I know what I wanted in life. I wanted to be a dad just like you. I wanted to show how a good dad you were. You are my hero. And if anyone were to ask my ambition to be, I would tell them that I wanted to be � a dad just like you

Happy Father�s Day!

Ps. I love u, dad. I miss u, dad
And
I love u too, J.

I’ve been telling myself that I should do a filler post after such long time of absence. Indeed, I have been lack of update due to procrastination? In the end, it makes no excuse not to doing anything right at the moment.

Finally, with the courage and the �just do it �attitude which currently I am sitting with some of that. Thus this is the post I am doing right now. It seems like that my words are incoherent that my entire paragraph doesn�t sound right at all. Perhaps it is due to the fact that I haven�t been working much on my words lately.

Turning to the year of 2008, it just presents me with such challenges ahead. Not that I wanted to complaint or so but the idea I am getting is that I wonder how can I grow strong and gain the sufficient faith to overcome these obstacles ahead. I can see it from afar and yet I do nothing to confront it when times come. Having the attitude of I�ll cross the bridge when I comes to it, it does not help at all.

I drafted a few posts but incomplete. Left it halfway in the midst, I would end up deleting them when the time comes. Here�s the in fact the first draft I drafted in the year of 2008. Keen to post up my 2008 resolution, I held back for the so-called idea and inspiration to come. Yet, the truth is that inspiration will not come to me unless I really doing the post. Just do it.

I been wanting to blog something. Anything. Everything. Well, I was hoping to do a better blog post rather than just a filler post. There’s nothing inside the post where as the content, the emotions and the feelings that channel through it. I don’t want it to be blank post.

Noticed that nowadays, the emo post doesn’t comes easily already. It comes with a cost. And to me, I couldn’t do any much better than current. Most of my posts are just plain blank. In fact, I been holding back from posting because it started to get tough on me. I couldn’t simply just begin a post and finished it. In fact, each and everytime I sitting in front of the screen, I will stare blank. However, when I am not in front of the screen my mind lingers and all the ideas to blog just popped out. It grew and I refine it from there. Just as I begin to type the things, nothing came concrete. Just a blurry idea.
Is it difficult just to complete a task.

I still have a few more draft inside my notebook. Maybe the times will come for me. Just out of curiosity I wanted to question myself whether I can consistently post at least 1 post per day or per week. Doubtfully, the weekly post seems too long to be in the acceptable radar and yet the daily posts just too much of effort to put in a day�s work.
All I can say now is let me just see the things to unfold themselves.

The year has come to an end. Everything that was done in this year itself has reached its maturity. Everyone made their resolution for the year 2007. Hoping that they’ll come back providing more thoughts and more insight of what significant they had made for themselves. The changes or improvement they had made over the year.

I was talking to my colleague online what he was doing at this moment. He told me that he is busy preparing his room for the new year. At the same time, he is writing his resolution about the year 2007. He said that the year 2007 was only half completed. He added that everyone need to improves themselves therefore they need to prepare a resolution for next year as well. This reminds me of the post I made for the resolution in 2007. I practically scream everything out of my mind.

Looking back, it was really bad. That time of me, I was really in anger mood. It seems that the whole entire world owes me one million. Now, when I read my own post for the 2007 resolution, I totally agree that this year 2007 I saw a few improvements that I kind of like about myself. (note: masuk bakul angkat sendiri). Anyway, let me trace it down the memory lane of 2007….

First Quarter
- My Best Friend Wedding
- My site blacklisted as the phishing site February
- The Nightmare @ Work : Horror acts from Miss K
- Chinese New Year : My first time with LatKyok team
- Participate in Linpeh CNY songMarch
- Together Gather 2007 with the Bloggers!!!
- Fall into the deep sea of love.

Second Quarter
- Deleted old nucleus blog
- Entrusted my heart to her
- Begining of the paid post
- Struggling with works
- A refreshment course of life
- Another friend wedding. One that I knew online, become my friend, former colleague, former supervisor
- Participated in the Deal or No Deal as a supporter

Third Quarter
- My birthday like usual
- First time outing for a holiday with new friends to Melaka
- Fascinated with Bleach

Fourth Quarter
- Holiday and more holiday
- A trip back to Kaktao
- Meet up with Mei Ying
- organized a ISE gathering again
- got promoted to Account Manager….

The next post : Dale 2008 Resolution which meant not to keep & Hailat Highlights for 2008

Once again, I was on a day trip up North again. Going to Penang for the business purpose along with my principal. They need to meet up with the client that mentioned to them for a while. Luckily for me, it was they themselves whom offered to join them in a car instead of me driving another car. Eco-friendly and cost savings too.

The day trip was on last Friday. As for the day before, I was out with a friend of a friend, Yap to meet up with his friends. Girl friends. After that session, both of us decided for a second round of teh tarik at the mamak stall nearby where he stayed. We talked a lot from the girls to faith to cars and careers. It was the second or third time I get to know him. From that night, I learned a lot about this person. By the time we finish talk cocks, it was 2 in the morning. I quickly left the place since that mamak was closing the stall.

Reaching home, I couldn’t yet sleep and hence decided to drop by at the nearest cybercafe for a round of dota or two. Coincidentally, I met up with my colleague t-m over the blueserver. He was on leave until next year so he played dota quite regularly in these few days, which he told me as I asked where he has been. I didn’t know that he was on leave till next year. It was about more than 1 week kind of period.

Anyway, by the time i noticed it was already five-ish. By an hour or two I will be heading to the rendezvous point in IOI Resort which is quite a distant from where I stayed, which is Setapak. I headed home after the final game of the match to take shower and prepared myself. After packing, I headed to the IOI Resort. Lacking of sleep, I dozed off once I alighted to the principal car. It was on and off I wake up when they stopped for a short rest and coffee. We reached the Penang slight after 12 noon. They went for their Friday prayer while I was out there taking a glass of teh tarik and sms-ing.

We headed to the customer site to conduct a presentation after having our lunch at Queensbay Mall. By the time the meeting ended, it was 5.00pm in the evening. Since it is Friday and we believe that the bridge will be definitely packed and congested, the principal decided to go for a dinner. They heard that mee udang in Penang was good. As for me, it was my first time going for mee udang since usually I would go to look for penang laksa or char kueh tiaw. Knowing from Grace that the Teluk Kumbar famous for the Mee Udang, I called her up to seek direction. She did give me a good guide to the Teluk Kumbar but no one was able to tell me which stall serves the best mee udang. Therefore I had to resort to call up Bryan for help. It seems that not much people knows about mee udang in Penang. I should have called Chan Lilian but my phone battery is depleting very fast. It was due to my overnight gaming session that I didn’t manage to put my phone to charge.

Anyway, after enjoying the mee udang we left the island on the ferry. Yes, the principal insisted to go on the ferry which ended up on the mainland at 9 plus. Had a coffee break at the Lotus before departing from Penang. Reached KL around 2 something but with mission in hand, I straight headed to the cybercafe at my house to get online. I was asked to help to do something before the deadline reached.

I slept the whole morning till 12 noon before wake up to go to run some errands. By the time, I manage to get Hallajs to help me with the online server things. Thanks to him, we manage to secure the data which is very crucial to me. It was the matter of life and death. Thank bro.

My earlier plan was to stay overnight in Penang for a day or two during the weekend. Planned to ask Mei Ying out on the next day but I promised to attend his wedding dinner, which falls on Saturday the next day. Maybe some other time with uploading the pictures.

As I fell asleep in my uncle place, I had a dream. It was an unbearable dream. Fascinating and intriguing which I straight jot it down once I awake. Here’s the dream goes…

In the dream, I just moved into a 3 storey house with a porch garden at the sides of the house. In front of the house lies a huge parking space which could accomodate up to 3 cars. The place was very serene. Then, I walked into the home and suddenly, I saw G. She came down to KL with her friend, Miss A. Appearantly she decided to drop by my place without pre-notifying me of her arrival.

At the same time, my mom was on her short break from her monthly confinement job. I told my mom that she and Miss A planned to had a sleepover at our place since they didn’t book any accomodation yet. This time around, her aunt also came along with her to KL. So, my mom decided that she need to rearrange the beds so that it could accomdate the three of them.

G slowly pecked me on my cheek, right cheek to be exact and her action caused me to feel disturbed. It actually trigger my mind that it is a very disturbing message she is sending to me. Therefore, I grab courage of myself to ask G why. Why she decided to peck me on my cheek? Later, I found out that she was still feeling unsure and disturbed. She was confused about as of her direction. Her sense of direction in life.

She then said that she remembered that I told her before that there’s some spirits / ghosts stayed on top of the building which I am currently staying. These supernatural stuff where hiding above of the lot. However, unrelated to this was that I told her that I liked to spend some time alone with her above in the swing. I notice that the dream I had is quite similar to the typical setup in the Hong Kong movies/dramas whereby the rooftop can be converted to a studio type. In my case, in this term should be known as dream, the rooftop was converted to some mini garden with a swing.

I said that I didn’t go up there for quite some time. It has been a while and I felt kinda afraid to go up. Hence, she insisted that she wanted to go up there to seek some answers. I was thinking, seeking answers from the supernatural stuff? The ghost? What kind of answers she was seeking? I was curious in which I asked her what answer?

As we know, dreams often ended up suddenly, without a proper closure or endings. In this dream, it was left there and there.

I shall never know the answer to her question. Kindly note that I had this dream earlier this year. Looking at my journal book, it stated the date of April 29th 2007 dated 12.47pm. Yes, I do have my afternoon nap.

the so-called tag protocol

# Link to your tagger and post these rules.
# List eight (8) random facts about yourself then tag eight(8) people.

its been a while since i last do tag. Time running short. Oh well, everyone says that each of us given standard 24 hours and it is up to us how we going to make full use of it. Just reminded that i wasted another 4 hours sleeping when the sun rise and shine in the morning. I slept till the sun rise up high on my head. Hehe.. i slept pass 1.00pm when my colleague called.

start to the random tag, which I have to write 8 facts about me. randomly? but how random is random? I couldn’t pull anything of my idle brain yet but as the way I look at it, the thing that randomly crossed my mind was dog. Yes. I was watching the making of “I AM LEGEND” and I saw the cute puppy Sam. In addition to that was Wingz linked me in one of his joke post which related to the dog food. Hence, it ain’t random after all because everything happened for a reason. I like to have a dog as pet because I used to have them. My favorite pet named “White B” as he had white fur. He’s very lovely and I always reminisce the times I bring him out for a walk. Then when I felt down, he was there accompany me listening to my rants and ramblings. He died die to some illness and was put to sleep to stop his suffering.

I studying in St. Ronan kindergarten when I am only 4 years old. There, I found out many friends that were also studying in St. Ronan when I entered Setapak High. Found out were we from the same kindergarten too. My buddy Wilson is also from St. Ronan. Can all the St. Ronanians, please stand up? Please stand up?

I enjoy watching Chinese ancient martial art drama series. I grew up watching all these sort of movies with my cousin brother, Tak. He introduced me to the world of kung fu especially when we continuously chasing the releases of each episode from the TVB. From Louis Cha (JinYong) to Gu Long (Xiong Yaohua) and many more, I fancied the beauty of each martial arts and the characters from those stories. Now, the Chinese ancient arts stories getting lame when it comes to TVB production. Ain’t much gist from the story writer nowadays. Better watch anime as the story is way much more interesting such as Bleach.

The 4th random fact I should state here since I am talking about the martial arts is that I still read the translate Hong Kong comic - “Fung Wan” or “Stormriders” or in translated to Malay is known as “Pedang Setiawan” I have the collection from episode 1 till date. Another best friend of mine, Tony wanted to scanned all these to digital format as for safekeeping sine that the paper might not able to withstand the time.

Another random fact I can state is that for this 5th fact, I have been composing and deleting every single words since the beginning. It is due to the fact that I couldn’t make up my mind. Yes, I am sucks in that. So, when it comes to the moment of decision, better go ahead and don’t ask me. I need longer time to made decision or given that statement, I might make decision in haste. Hasty I can be at times of constraint.

I am master of procrastinators. I am better than Lisan in terms of procrastinate. For example in terms of being punctual, I procrastinate till the exact time then I will be going out. Let’s take the latest procrastination which has been taken place yesterday. I was suppose to help out as the logistics minister and I need to be there early. However, due to the nature of me, I procrastinated long enough when I suppose to be there at 9.00am, I leave my house at 8.50am in hope to reach there at on time.

am addicted to Scrabble in the Facebook. Been playing the scrabulous with Carolyn and she kicked my ass real time. Big time too as well. So, the fact which is randomly here is that I sucks

Last but not least. That the fact I can be proud of is that I manage to finish this random-ness of the random thingy taggy stuff in the end.

So, who shall I tag from here onwards?

1. Surfnux
2. Danny Foo
3. Hallajs
4. kljs
5. natc10
6. cherwith
7. Yow Chuan
8. Edward

My colleague invited me for the free movie tickets screening @ the Pavilion. GSC was offering few movies and 4 of us went there for the movies. We watched Spiderman for the 7.15pm slot and for the 2nd slot, we have to 2 tickets for the Secret starring Jay Chou and the other is the is french movie, Priceless.

I watched the Secret with another colleague whereas the other 2 watched the french movie. I told my colleague that it was my first time going to Pavilion and furthermore was joining them We had J.Co donut in between the movies. Since that there’s such big hype about the donuts, we ought to try ourselves to find out. One of my colleague, AW claims that there’s not much different from other donuts. No big deal except its very soft, much fillings and not so sweet.

We bought half dozen from there and finished it before enter for the shows. The other colleague, CL bought another half dozen from there but was stopped from entering the cineme. Note : the cinema was just started and the air conditioning wasn’t that cold yet. Now I heard it was very very cold at night. We were sweating through the both movie. The ticket attendent stopped him and requested him to leave the box at the counter so he could collect from them after the movie. That caused him to forget to pick up later and we went back to the cinema after we almost reach to the parking lot. More walking for me.

The queue was long and we waited for 5-10 minutes. I lost count when I saw the numbers of donuts for my taste buds. Yummy…. and it was very hard to make the choice which to pick. Imagine whether I should get half dozen or 1 dozen? But nonetheless, I will go there again when the one at the Sunway opened for business.

How can you choose among those?

Look at how hygiene are they when preparing the donuts.

Don’t know when I shall go there again for the donut. Anyone? Movie and Donut again? Btw, I am looking forward for the sequel of Narnia - Prince Caspian.

Due to the bad economic and worse cashflow, my boss not only urge me but threatening me to go and collect debt from the customer. Hence, want or don’t want I have to do it.

There’s one customer which I used to contact pertaining the payment. However since that for the past 1 year there isn’t much dealing, the account lady I forgotten her name. Hence, here’s my first conversation / phone call.

Operator : Hello. XXXX company.
Me : Hi there. Can you pass me to Stephanie from Accounts/Finance department?
Operator : One moment.

*** waiting song ***

*someone answered…*
Me : Hi there.. Stephanie?
Charlie : Stephanie on leave today wor. Who’s there?
Me : I’m from XYZ and hereby wanted to check on the payment status. Anyone can help me?
Charlie : what you wanna check? Marketing invoice? Quote or?
Me : Huh….? No no. I wanted to check on the payment status.
Charlie : for what? You want quote?
Me : urgh.. no. Accounts Department ?
Charlie : This is Marketing department…
Me : ok. Nvm.. I call the operator again.

*Another attempt*

Operator : Hello. XXXX company.
Me : Hi there. Can you pass me to Accounts/Finance department?
Operator : One moment.

Johnny : Hi. Finance department.
Me : Hi there.. I’m calling from XYZ to enquire about the payment status. Is Stephanie in?
Johnny : Stephanie in Marketing department.
Me : Huh? Last time I also talked to Stephanie on the payment 1….
Johnny : You SURE you talked to the right person?

*I kept silence. Suddenly realised that the person I talked to last time wasn’t Stephanie.*

Me : uhm. I think I recalled the wrong person. It suppose to be Sam.
Johnny : Sam! Ah.. now u making sense.
Me : …. =.=”
Johnny : She is engaged on the other line. Mind call back later?
Me : ok..

*hang up with such embarassment*

It has become vague. Everything seems to be happening in shades. I can’t really recall by now but luckily that the moment I was awake, my mind was fresh with the scenes in within of my dream I scribbled it down. All and every single of it that I can remember.

Out of nowhere, that my old man appeared in my dream. He was there inside looking at me, smiling. The scenes I had are distorted. We were inside a KFC fastfood restaurant. I ordered 3 pieces of chicken for him. Original recipe. He knew that I was hungry. The place was crowded with patrons. Everyone was so intense with their food. Munching and feasting like barbarian. Meat and flesh lovers. The sight was ….. Anyway, we managed to find a palce for ourselves to sit. While having the meal, my dad asked about my well being. How am i doing in the society. What was the challenges I am having and so on. We chatted for a long time. I felt calm. Tranquil. And peace.

Before it all happened, I was in a mammoth training room. A room with abundance of water. Overflowing. I was inside a simulator. To catch fish. And I can’t remembered the rest anymore.